destruction
he took everything
left me
devastated
let me rephrase
he helped me
devastate
myself
everyday
I ask myself
when should you take
personal responsibility
and when should you
lay blame
where it's due?
---
useless
if a man can't provide
what is he worth?
---
empty promises
I promised her the world
and gave her nothing
---
broken dreams
we bought
a four bedroom
house
four years later
and it's still just
the two of us
surrounded by bills
we cannot pay
the two of us
all alone
in our big
empty
house
---
agency
how can you be
lead a family
if you can't lead
yourself?
---
tongue biter
I've bitten my tongue
so many times
i stopped counting
i ask myself
is it love
to set aside grievances
and pretend
like it's all okay
or is it capitulation
desperation
the ultimate act
of self sacrifice?
but how can
you self-sacrifice
if there's no "you"
to speak of?
---
type
she had
a type
but now she'sÂ
with me
did her type
change
or did she?
---
for her
i tell myself
i do it
for her
i keep the peace
for her
i let her keep
her friendships
her sanity
for her
i let
bygones be bygones
keep the past
in the past
for her
but do i?
because if i actually
confronted him
made him
face up
to what he did
i might
have to
face up
to what i did
too
---
danger
she likes
her men
dangerous
so why does
she like
me?
---
empty
what is a man
made of
if not
self-esteem?